Too Many

Too many dreams will keep you wide awake, but numb. There's a dam stopping the riverrun and I don't know whether or which way the current pushes and pulls. A musician sometimes. A writer who doesn't write. A drifter with cares. A lover who drifts. A thinker who's lost. A pretender and real. I am good at pretending. I am pretending to understand reality.

We learn to walk before we know where.

We learn to talk before we can sing.

We learn to love before we know pain.

We learn to forget like we learn to ignore.

It's a citywide blackout, but at least I can see the stars.

Distant, scattered doubt to remind us who we are.

infinity girl

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ihateinfinitygirl.com

02/16

disappearing

i'm disappearing into infinite gullets

this must happen to somebody

once a day at least

i used to live exclusively off rays of the sun

like some giant tree

swallowed by my own expectations

i'm disappearing into infinite gullets

following afterthought chuckles

and toppled straws

creativity is an ocean in this town

outer space in any other

love is beautiful certainty for now

wait film this for a second

so what

so what

if a fire alarm

interrupts your rite of spring

so what

if an earthquake

makes skyscrapers of feedback

totter

but not fall

not fall

i've spent endless hours

in a single room before

for naught

melody's a stillbirth

noise prevails

why not

(if a fire alarm

interrupts your rite of spring)

re act

(when an earthquake

makes skyscrapers of feedback

totter)

and blast high

blast high

melody's a beautiful moment

noise interrupts

and the moment's gone

suddenly segments of static

each individual electric scream

each second in passing

beautiful

i spent a handful of hours

in a single room

not even paying attention

to what became my life

melody can be a waste

of noise

so what

so act

fall

high

you totter

not blast

it feedbacks

an interruption

gone

Blast!

react

and

prevail

This isn't the sound of something falling apart.